HAURA

Tinggal 8 minggu je lagi dan kemudian...Haura in the house yaw! My first baby. The strongest baby ever. I love you Munchies.

Serius berdebar. Tapi tak sabar. Dah lama tunggu dia. Baby mama yg kuat. Awal pregnancy dekat 3 kali bleeding. Dengan situasi emosi kita yang kadang ke laut hindi, baby tetap kuat dan membesar dengan sihat. Hujung pregnancy asyik kena warded je kita. Selalu jugak buat "lawatan" ke hospital. Anak mama ni suka hospital agaknya macam papa dia. Kerja pun kat hospital. Haila anak, mama tak suka hospital. Huhu. Jomla kte buat lawatan ke tempat lain kan bagus. Adeh.

Cakap pasal warded, Punca pertama sebab leaking and doctor takut air ketuban bocor. But no worries. Sesiapa yg mengalami leaking terus je pergi hospital. Jangan takut. Bukannya doctor nak makan kte pun.

Punca kedua sebab baby kurang gerak. Haura gerak sekali je jam 9 pagi. Sampai lah kte pegi hospital, buat ctg jam 3 petang barulah haura start kick balik. So far result ctg okay. Tapi bila scan perut, doc scan jantung result tak berapa cantik pulak. Aisey. Makanya kena warded lagilah kte.

Sekarang bulan puasa. Haura due InsyaALLAH 31/07/2016 ni. Tapi bulan puasa bulan yang tough. Sampai sekarang puasa ke 4 kte berjaya puasa separuh hari je. Haura tak aktif. Like sangat tidak aktif. Kalau ibu mengandung lain anak dia bulan puasa dok aktif kick, menggeliat, haura tak. Dia senyap je. Sesekali adalah dia kick. Itupun kadang dah pukul 1 petang baru 4 kali je kick. Lepas kte makan baru dia kick dengan aktif nya. Alhamdulillah. Nurse cakap maybe sebab baby letih dan lapar. Bagi kte, mak2 mengandung kat luar sana, kalau baby dalam perut macam pelik je takyahlah dok puasa lagi. Kte tak tahu dia kat dalam macam mana. Kena ganti puasa pun gantilah. Nak2 anak kte ni selera besar, makan bole kata dasyat. Nak nasi je. Makan mee mihun muntah balik acik. Lambat makan sikit terus angin satu badan. Takpela janji anak mama sihat.

Hopefully, proses bersalin nanti bejalan dengan lancar. Haura..tu nama dia sepanjang pregnant kan dia. Tapi tak tahulah nak letak apa hujungnya. Macam2 terfikir.

Nur Haura: Cahaya Wanita berkulit putih

Haura inani: wanita berkulit putih yg dihadapanku

Haura Zaheerah: Wanita berkulit putih yg terpuji/solehah

Dan banyak lagi. Haura...haura. Macam manalah agaknya rupa anak mama. Can't wait to see you soon. Take care baby 👶

loser itu aku

Dan di saat ini aku rasakan seperti loser
Bukanlah bakal isteri yg membantu..itu aku.
Duit takda,
Harta pun takda.

Bila semua benda berbayar oleh dia
Dan aku hanya melihat
Tiada mampuku selain mendoakan sahaja.
"murahkanlah rezeki dia ya ALLAH"

Dan penghujungnya aku lagi...seperti loser
Melihat saja membantu tiada
Yang susahnya dia, yang kasihannya dia
Aku? Bediam. Bisu.
Akulah loser.

25th July 2015

And each day I count

There's nothing I should left behind 

The one kind...and that's he's made of

I still wondering...why?

Black and white black and white

And suddenly I see the rainbow

Hoping this isn't a fairytale 

As "eternally" is what I pray for.

Somehow it's too late to look back

Yet not too early to surrender

Let's write a story 

of "once upon a time"

And we have the same dreams

For a HAPPY ENDING.

p/s: I really love the flowers at Facebook page...would you buy it for me?

Best Male Buddy

He's my best male buddies (I hope he realized that)

Team begaduh

Not an obsession

 He's is something

Kamu,

Terima kasihlah tahan perangai acik

I am totally a drama queen (extreme one) in the world

I am fully emotional.

Thank you.

<3

#countingdays

Roses

Like a drama,

A perfect sentence to describe my life now.

Gila tak awesome,

Kau tengah2 sakit kat tempat kerja

Tiba - tiba dapat call kata ada delivery utk kau

Me was like "Bila masa nya ni aku beli barang siap delivery??"

*blur*

Pergi depan ofiz

Nah kau, sejambak bunga only for me.

Happiness over load.

Seriously, I thought it only happen kat drama tv je.

Haisyh, butterflies everywhere,

Munge munge sini sana

Sampai kesudah senyum sampai cramp muka kau.

I'm lucky to have him.

BOB

Sometimes, we just need to let go the past because those memories are simply not worth it. Appreciate ourselves first, the family and friends. Not to be forgotten, appreciate the person that loves you the most, the crime partner, the other half..maybe. This one guy which I don't have any clue about him. What he's thinking now, do he feel jealous, how he looks like when he is pissed off, the temper, the sweet and cuteness...does it overload? One answer, Opposite. He is totally opposite of me. When he just love the quietness, and I totally in love with the crowded and busy life. When I have countless best friend...male or female, and he just have a few. Love the orange and strawberry much while I just hate those and choose the sweetness of chocolate where he just dislike them. You see, he's the opposite.The man from Mars, can we ever stand with each other? Sincerely, the most drama queen on Venus...me.

BOB

New Phase

Starting a new life. And I don't know when exactly  my life starts to bloom.

He, 

I should say that his existence is like a sudden. 

Well, everything about him is a sudden.

Stepping into a new phase in life.

Am I ready enough?

Is he the right one?

Only ALLAH knows.

The only thing I am sure about is to give me and all his efforts...some chance.

 for sure...and I am already on my way to fall hard for you.